32 weeks!

And for lack of a better comparison I feel like Bella Swan with little Renesmee trying to rip out of me! every once in a while her kicks and punches feel like she's gonna bust right through! or she gets so low in my pelvic that it feel like she's gonna drop right out. lol

Update, results and growth

So we had our appointment today and it went GREAT! Charlie is right on track for growth!!! So awesome since before she was measuring a little small. They said my placenta is still large and odd but other than that she's great! She's weighing in at 3lbs 11 oz. We got to see a 3d scan of her, which I use to think was creepy! but when it's your own its not nearly as bad! :) We got to see the cord on the scan which was weird but cool. After we had our US apt. I took a tour of the Postpartum area which is really nice. Less stress seeing where I'll be. I met again with a different Dr since mine had to rush off to do an emergency C section. I was able to get my glucose test results. I was at 104 and at 140 is where you'd have to do the second round of testing so I was very happy to hear that! They also gave me my iron levels which were good as well. I got some Ambien to see if that will help me sleep better. I sure hope it does! I'm exhausted!!! We were also able to finally get the crib home from my dad's office where it has been hanging out. I can't wait to put it together!!!

here are the newest US pics and one of the 3d shots :)

The little bubble like thing you see near her face is the cord.

30 weeks tomorrow.

Seriously?! 30 weeks!? AH!

After all the scares and complications we went through early on it's so nice to be this far! To think that at 20 weeks the Dr was talking about if we needed to get her out 23 weeks or later would be the best. We've passed 23 weeks up long ago!!! :)

My last appointment went well. I asked the Dr if the weird, almost spasms I was feeling were normal. He said yep! Sometimes they just like to freak out for a second. I also did my glucose test which actually didn't end up being as bad as I thought, until I got home. The drink was just like fruit punch, pretty good actually. The blood being drawn wasn't nearly as bad either. I think the older I get and the more it is done correctly it's calming my fear. The only problem I had was that I was so nervous I was going to "fail" the test that I ate breakfast but didn't eat lunch. I couldn't eat the hour I was waiting so by the time I ate I was on a sugar rush starving stomach. :( I ate when I got home and ended up falling asleep. I felt like crap! I eventually got a really bad migraine, which if you know me you know how bad I get them. Taylor had gotten us dinner and about 20 min later I was throwing up :(
I also mentioned to the Dr about my lack of sleep. I can usually fall asleep pretty quickly but staying asleep is a thing of the past. I wake up every 30-45 min and am up for another 30-45 min before I can get back to sleep. He said he could give me some meds to help or I could try doing a no TV about an hour before bed to help ,y mind relax. The past 2 nights i haven't fallen asleep to the TV, which is huge, and it's helped a bit. I still wake up but it's about every 2 hours or so. Usually at 6 AM I am moving to the couch because my hip is killing me. I don't know why the couch helps, but it does. And then the sleep talking/mumbling begins. I don't know if it's the pregnancy or my mind just not getting enough rest that I have begun talking so much. I know I would do it every once in a while, but this is every night now. I get mumbling (never anything decipherable) so loudly that I wake myself up. Good thing I'm on the couch so I don't wake Taylor up :) I get an U/S at my next appointment on the 21st! I'm excited to see how big she's gotten. We haven't had one since Oct 23rd, so it'll be about 2 months since we've seen her.


First shower is this weekend. It's the family shower :) I'm hoping to see some family I haven't seen in a while!!! My Aunt Christine couldn't come, they live in WA, but she still ordered me something. It got delivered yesterday and I was SOOOO EXCITED!!! She got us our Travel Set!!! It's beautiful!!! So generous of them to get us this gift!!! I don't know that I'll ever be able to thank them enough!!! Finally Taylor is getting into the excited mode :) I was just going to take it out of the box so i could see it and he ended up building the stroller :) We went through the manual and figured out all the little gadgets and functions. It was so cute!!! I have it sitting in the front room and I just can't wait to put her in it!!! not only do I know that she'll be safe in it, she's going to be so cute!!! Thank you so much Aunt Christine and Uncle Chris!!!!!

Taylor started reading a book last night called The Baby Bonding Book For Dads. It was cute to hear him "humph" while reading and be like "I didn't know that." I think he was able to get a bit of insight on what to expect. I think he's going to be such a great dad. I'm glad he's finally showing his excitement!

28 weeks!

I love that we're getting so close!!! I am now meeting with the Dr every other week. which can either make things feel like it's getting closer faster or slower. Having to drive all the way to the U isn't the funnest thing. But i know we are in the best place we can be to deliver.

Jaime came with me to my appt on Tuesday which was so nice! We got to take a tour of the labor and delivery area and thank goodness Jaime was there! She was able to ask questions I wouldn't have even thought about. Next time I have to do my glucose test which I'm so not looking forward to. I hate having my blood drawn!!! And I have to stick around for a while. :( I'm hoping all goes well with the test mainly so I don't have to do the 3 hour test!

I had to ask Jaime and the Dr exactly what a Braxton hicks feels like. Then I realized I had had a few. Nothing major. I had a pretty intense one last night while stuck in traffic but nothing followed it so i wasn't worried.

Last week was Brooke's baby shower which was a lot of fun! It was so fun to see all the gifts that she got for Morgan! I can't wait for these crazy girls to get here!!!

I had my first dream last night about Charlie :) The dream was that she was just born, born 9 weeks early but was full grown??? it was weird. But i was holding her and she was so damn cute!!! I cant wait for her to get here!!!!

Her kicks have been getting stronger and stronger. Keeps me up most nights but I wouldn't trade it for anything. I wonder what in the world she is doing in there that she's kicking that much.

I can't for my shower to get here! Jaime is throwing, what I think is going to be an amazing shower!!! HELLO Chocolate fountain! how can you go wrong??? LOL My Aunt and friend Connie are also having one, which is so nice that some friends I wouldn't have normally invited can come and others who can't come to Jaime's can come too. Than Taylor's mom is having a family one as well. I told him not to bother her with it since I was already having 2 but, he did anyways.

so tired

I never thought I could be this tired. I didn't sleep great last night but I felt like I had gotten enough. I sat on the couch and felt exhausted so I laid down and ended up napping for 3 hours. and I'm still exhausted. Like exhausted to the point that my eyes refuse to stay open! I can feel my eyelids getting so heavy. If this means Charlie is using my energy to grow big and strong, take it! :) Anything to make my baby girl stronger. I can't wait for our next appointment on the 23rd. I can't believe it's getting so close!!!

Last night my dad, Aunt Cindy and Uncle Gene went and saw The Wizard of Oz done by the Symphony. Very cool! They played the movie while the symphony did all the music. I did fall asleep but only with about 10 min left of the show. It didn't start till 8 so it was already pretty late for me. We had great seats! Thanks again, Dad!

kick kick kick

My goodness! Charlie was kicking so much last night! A few swift kicks and I thought she was gonna come busting out! LOL it kept me from sleeping but I wouldn't trade it for anything.

On Sunday Taylor and I decided to go have some fun. We went to IHOP to try out their banana bread french toast (for me) and pumpkin praline pancakes (for him.) Then we went and saw Due Date. I asked Taylor if he felt like going to do some baby registering, not thinking he'd say ok. He said sure so we headed to Babies R Us. He ended up having a lot of fun with that scanner gun. He was registering for all the "I <3 Daddy" stuff. It was so so cute! After we were done there we went to Burlington's Baby Depot to register there as well. I have only been in there briefly to get a body pillow and I refuse to go back there. It was entirely disappointing. The selection was limited, the staff was not friendly in the slightest, and registering was a pain. After we got there we had to wait for an employee to get us a scanner. While walking through BABY aisles I walked over a freaking razor blade! In the middle of the aisle! WTF?! I wasn't happy with the items they had at all. After we were done we called for assistance to give the scanner back and no one came so we just left. Thank goodness Brooke is also registered at Target because I don't go back there. :(

I will admit that most of the items at Babies R Us did seem pricier. But there were also a better quality. I liked the items Brooke got registered for at Target so I'm also going to register there. :)

Here's our registry if anyone care to take a gander :) http://www.toysrus.com/registry/link/index.jsp?overrideStore=TRUS&registryNumber=46171613

Latest appointment

My latest appointment went really well. I had been in a lot of pain lately due to round ligament pain. If you haven't experienced this start praying now that you don't! Most women get it when they sneeze or cough so it only lasts a few seconds. Mine, of course it would be more, lasted from Thursday to Saturday to where I couldn't move without wanting to die, or feeling like I was dying. It's still with me just not nearly as bad. Mainly when i sit down or try to get up from sitting down.
I was hoping the Dr would be able to help with the pain. Maybe tell me how to help relieve it or something... but no. Rest and Tylenol.

Other than that he said Charlie is looking good! there is still some debris in the fluid surrounding her but nothing to worry about right now. Her brain, kidneys and bladder looked great! Since we're doing so good this appointment our next one isn't for 4 weeks :( I had kind of liked having a 3 week appointment. But he said after that appointment we start going a lot more. That means its getting close!!!!!!

I have such mixed feelings about giving birth. I want to keep her inside where I can keep her safe and warm. But I really can't wait to hold her and see her!

We got some cute U/S pics that I need to get scanned and put up. The pics I take with my phone from the U/S never look as good.

Half way?

I figured that I won't consider myself half way there until I hit about 24 weeks. Since I didn't even know for the first 5-6 weeks it doesn't feel half way there.

Last night me and my fellow pregger friends Brooke and Nizel went to dinner. I was craving Olive Garden salad and luckily the others said they were fine with going there as well :) It was so nice to be around other ladies that feel somewhat the same as I do. I do feel though that I'm not showing as much as those 2 are. They are at the point where you can tell they are preggo and not fat. Hopefully that will save those 2 from stretch marks. they are slowly and steady growing. I still feel on the verge of looking like I ate too much lol. I'm worried that all my growth will happen all at once! and Stretch markville here I come. :(

I can't wait to go to and have a shower for friends and myself. I went to my friend Amanda's shower the other day and the little clothes are soooo cute!!! I tried to be good and only bought 2 things for Charlie. I can't wait to see all the cute things all my friends get!!!

Dr Update

So when we had our appointment on Tuesday the Ultrasound tech was so nice and much more talkative. They said my placenta is still looking weird, but in the 3 weeks in between appointments Charlie had a good 3 weeks of growth. So that was good! They said her brain looks good. She had a full bladder which means insides are working :)

The Dr said he's cautiously optimistic. He said everything is looking good, but didn't want to say I'm in the clear yet. He said he still didn't know exactly what was going on with me but the 3 weeks of growth is good. I also got the flu shot while I was there which has left my arm sore :( but hopefully no flu this season :)

I like that our appointments have been moved to every 3 weeks. I know it was only a week, but 4 weeks seemed to take FOREVER!

I'm so glad we finally know what we're having!!!! I read a bunch of things before my appointment to see what I could eat or drink to get her to move more. I had tried OJ last time but I think since I drink it all day everyday she's use to it by now. I read drinking something cold before would "irritate" the baby into moving around more. Well when we'd go to the Dr since we're at the U I got a treat of a Starbucks Frap when we left (it's on the main floor and walking past it and not getting anything was just cruel.) This time I decided I'd get it before. Well it certainly did the trick. The first thing the nurse said was "baby sure is a wiggle worm!" The last time she literally only kicked her feet a little. This time getting to see her dancing around was so much fun. She was moving her hands and arms around, opening and closing her mouth (nurse said she was drinking the fluid, which was good.)

It's so crazy to think that just by knowing that she's a girl my heart has grown! I loved this baby before I knew but now? I love her even more!

I also found out today that my Short Term Disability is completely approved! Thank goodness! Once we start getting a check I'll be able to feel a little less guilty about Taylor working his ass off all day every day.

ribbons and bows

Well the news is in and we're having a girl!!! Charlie is her name... it's so nice to be able to refer to her with a name or she/her. I really didn't think that after so many of my friends just had or are having girls that there was a chance we too would be having a girl. I'm so happy though!!!

Countdown

I've begun my countdown to Tuesday. My next appointment is at 3:15 PM. I'm anxiously waiting and hoping for good/better news than we've been getting. I'm hoping last appointment was just something weird with the ultrasound and this one will be so much better! AND we should hopefully be able to get the gender this time too!!! If we don't I'm gonna go crazy not knowing!!!

Dr. Appointment

Well we had an appointment yesterday and we were really hoping to find out the gender. Well we didn't. The little shits legs were too close together to tell.

The ultra sound tech said that we were measuring weirdly and that I still had the bleed. She took our ultrasounds to a doctor for more info. After we waiting 2 hours!!!!! the Dr. came in and first thing he says is "the Placenta looks weird." oh ok... He said the baby is measuring smaller than he would like, but not by much. My placenta looks weird and it's not working as well as it should they said it could be due to the bleed and separation I had earlier but we just have to watch it for now. They checked the blood flow to the baby and that was good. Also the heartbeat was good. Right now there isn't a whole lot they can do. We just have to hope and pray that we go full term or at least as close as possible to where the baby can survive outside of me. He mentioned that there was still a chance that if the placenta doesn't work right, I could lose the baby. That's devastating at this point to even hear that, let alone think about it. Taylor asked with these troubles we are having what the odds were of it happening again. The Dr. said its like getting hit by lightening. VERY rare that it would happen again.

So for now I just sit and hope that all goes well. Now every little pain I feel makes me panic. I don't like living in fear... but if it keeps my baby with me I will fear each second.

Stuff shopping

So I had been looking here and there at cribs but nothing to extensive. I knew I wanted one of these convertible ones that goes to a toddler bed then a twin/full size bed. I was looking at places online that I could go and look at them in person. USA Baby, Burlington Coat Factory, and Target. I found a few i thought could be cute so I saved the pics so I knew what to look for. Last stop, Target's website. Scrolling and scrolling nothing was really standing out. There was one that was cute so i clicked to get more info. i was skimming through the pics and one shot they had of it I knew it had to be mine! It was a combination of the color of the wood, and the styles for the changes that it offered. Some of the other cribs when they turned into an adult bed looked ridiculous! This one was amazing!!!!! I sent the pic to Taylor and wrote "please say you like this." His response, "yeah it's cute." ok fine he doesn't care. :) So I start looking as to when I can order this, the baby stuff was all on sale so I was seeing if we needed to order it or could go pick it up. Sale ends that night. Taylor got home and I asked if I could please order it since the sale was going to end. He was fine with that so I ordered the crib and mattress :) I can't wait for it to get here!!!!
Sunday morning we went to Taylor's sister's (Nicole) house for breakfast. I HATE bacon. If I hate it then why when they started cooking it did it smell sooo amazing??? argh... I ate at least 5 pieces. She also made Strawberry pancakes. She got the recipe from Rachel Ray's app. They were soooo good! I wouldn't have ever thought about putting strawberries IN pancakes. YUM! Thanks Nicole! they were delicious!!!

I did it!

I took the leap and got married! We had a great weekend in Vegas! My feet hurt so bad from walking around all day so I was in bed by about 7 each night. Taylor got to go play without me bugging him which I think he appreciated. It also gave him time to hang out with my brothers. Its so weird and nice to see how close they've gotten in this short time. They've completely accepted him and seem to really enjoy him being around.
Saturday was the ceremony and I was up at about 7 AM :( so I started off with a Caramel Frappacino from Starbucks. I was struggling big time walking past it all the time and not getting any coffee. So i checked online, since I have been limiting my caffeine intake, and If I had a frap that was about all the caffeine I could allow myself. It was soooo worth it!!! I never realized how much I absolutely love coffee until I can't have it. It helped me make it through the day for sure. I got my hair, makeup and a pedicure done at the hotel's salon. I loved it all. I looked at the bill they sent to the chapel and it was $275!!!! I loved it but there was no way on my own I would have paid that!!! The ceremony was great! I was so nervous and anxious that I barely smiled in the video... As I was walking down the aisle I looked at Taylor and he had started tearing up. I looked and it him and said "don't." If he was tearing up I was gonna end up bawling!!! We took a ton of pictures after. I then went and passed out in the room from exhaustion. Taylor went out to play with my brothers and my dad. I liked that he felt comfortable to go do that.

I made it!!!

Oh finally!!! Second trimester!!! I welcome you with open arms! please welcome me back with the following: Please allow me to sleep, I'm only asking for a few hours of good sleep, less nausea, the constant having to pee feeling can lessen now, can my boobs please stop growing??? and can the pain stop?

I hope that the second trimester goes a hell of a lot easier than the first.

oh did I happen to mention that I'm getting married on Saturday??? oh just a little detail I may have missed :) I'm really hoping things go well while we are there. I've been in the ER or to the doctors once a week since my first incident and now being far away from home makes me worry. I've got my fingers crossed that everything will be fine. :) Other than that I'm extremely excited for this change in my life!

ER, again

I'm getting really sick of the ER. :(
I woke up not feeling to great yesterday. Had some pains in my lower pelvic area. I thought maybe it was the clot trying to pass? maybe since I went to dinner and a movie with my dad and actually wore jeans (I've been in pajama pants for over a week) that maybe they rubbed or put pressure on that area making it sore? I had no idea.
Taylor and I took Dean to get cleaned in the morning and I was feeling icky but ok. As we were leaving with him it was bad enough for me to say ER time. The pain was so intense I was almost in tears at times, which is bad... I have a very high tolerance for pain.
While in the ER they gave me Zofran which I'm not sure why when I told them I had taken one maybe 4 hours prior??? Ultrasound went well. Baby was flipping and moving around. They didn't have my previous ultrasound to compare to but from what I had seen and could see while they were checking was that the hemorrhage was bigger. We still have an appointment with a high risk Dr on Tuesday so I'm hoping he'll be able to look at my stuff then and tell us what's really going on.
They gave me some Lortabs and sent us home. I don't do prescription pain pills unless absolutely necessary. OH it was necessary! The pain was so bad! About 9 last night it was so intense I made Taylor run to the 24 hour pharmacy to get the prescription filled.

Why is my pregnancy going to difficulty?? I'm so worn out... all the time... I can't go anywhere or do anything...

I finally broke down crying the other night to Taylor. He had just gotten home and was heading out 15 min later to his bach party. I got so frustrated that he could just leave and I was stranded :( I know it's not his fault that I'm stuck... well... not entirely :) But I was just so bored and alone that I cried.
You think, oh bed rest would be nice! i need a Dr. to tell me to stay home and in bed! NO you don't! you want something until you HAVE to do it. It sucks!!!

BUT if this is what I need to do to keep my baby safe and healthy... damn it... I'll do it.

Dr. appointment

Well the Dr. said everything looks good! I had a bleed that has turned into a clot that is still sitting above my uterus. I may still bleed but unless it's red I'm ok. If I get more red it'll be back to the ER for me. Baby is strong and doing really well he said. We got a bunch of pics which is nice. it's nice to see updated pics :) It's so crazy to see how big the baby is getting! I'm on partial bed rest until Monday. The Dr. said I can do things around the house but not to go out shopping or anything...

bed rest... bah!

Well Friday afternoon i was standing at work and had a strange sensation that i had started my period... weird. I went to the bathroom to find a lot of blood. i freaked and ran out to my boss and told him I was bleeding and had to leave! I had a few coworker friends that saw me starting to cry and rushed over to see what was going on. I told them I was bleeding and didn't know why. I threw one my phone and had her call Taylor to come get me. We were in the elevator going down and I got the rush again. I went to the bathroom while they went outside to wait for Taylor. I was hysterical when he got there. My friends told Taylor to DRIVE! and he did. We got to the ER and got checked in. It seemed like it took forever for a Nurse or Dr. to get there. Once the nurse came in they took some blood and started and IV of fluids. They had to get some urine without blood so I got a catheter as well... ugh. Then the nurse did a Doppler heart beat thing to see if we could get a heart beat. She warned us that there have been many times that she wasn't able to get a heart beat with the Doppler so not to panic. Well the second she put it on me we got the heart beat. Taylor and I started bawling. Expecting the complete worse it was such a relief to hear the heart beat. She warned us again that this didn't mean everything was ok. We understood but were just so happy to hear the heart nothing else mattered. Then they wheel chaired me to get the ultrasound. Everything with the baby looked ok. Little was swimming and had gotten a lot bigger then we had last seen! it was crazy how much more developed it was. The nurse did a bunch of clicking and typing on the computer then we were wheeled back to our room and waited for the Dr. He came in and informed us that the baby was ok. That i had a subchorianic hemorrhage. This means the placenta had separated slightly from the uterine wall and caused the bleeding. I had a chance that I could carry full term and not have anymore problems or I could miscarry. I was placed on bed rest until I see my Dr. and told to only get up to go to the bathroom or to eat. Taylor seems to have forgotten the eating part... he won't let me out of bed for anything! So here I sit on Monday, bored out of my mind. You think before being placed on bed rest that being told to stay in bed would be great! not when you're forced to stay there... not so much fun. I have an appointment Tomorrow with my Dr. and then next Tuesday with a high risk doctor. For now we hope and pray that everything is ok and we will carry full term without any problems.

I have some amazing friends who truly care about me. I've had an overwhelming amount of texts each day making sure we are ok. Brooke came and babysat me on Saturday, bringing some Cherry Garcia while Taylor ran an errand. Jaime came and babysat me as well on Sunday also bringing Cherry Garcia! I could NEVER have too much Cherry Garcia in my freezer. Just the fact of opening the freezer (when Taylor would let me get up) and seeing 2 in there made me so happy! :) It was so nice to have some company for a little bit. Taylor's mom, Ann and sister, Jessica brought us dinner last night. These 2 should have a cooking show. Their food is so good! Thank you all ladies for making this a little easier!!!

fear

I've been hearing and reading a lot about miscarriage. Once I start reading I can't stop... It makes me so sad that people are going through this. I read one where everything was fine at their appointments and then on their next appointment no heartbeat. This makes me terrified that it could happen to me. My next appointment isn't until the 17th and I'm counting down the days and minutes... I need to just hear my little's heart again to know it's ok. I sure hope I'm just scaring myself and everything is ok. I just can't help my mind wandering. :(

I'm so excited to hear what all my friends that are pregnant are having! Torrie finds out today :)

I did a little test called Intelligender. It's like an at home gender test. I thought it'd be fun just to take the test then see if when the doctor tells us if it was right. So for the test's sake we are having a boy!!! Time will tell :)

9 weeks

I'm 9 weeks today. CRAZY!

I can't tell if I'm making a baby or if a baby is trying to kill me. I've never been so sick. I'm nauseated all the time... I have to eat constantly or it gets worse. This couch has permanent imprint of my butt in it. I'm afraid I may loose my job since I've been out so much. I've tried going some days and I get so sick it's not worth me being there. I don't know what to do. I have one pair of pants that fit me, they are getting tight and yet my maternity pants are too big still.

I can't wait for my first appointment next week! I can't believe I'm going to a doctor to hear a heartbeat... WOW! I'm so excited for this little one to get here and it's just barely begun.

I sleep on average about 8 hours a night. then 1 to 2 more in the afternoon. When I think about it that way I think I sleep a lot.. but then I think about waking up every 15 mins because I can't get comfortable or it's too hot... then it comes down to maybe 4-5 hours total. :(

My friend Brookie and I are a week apart. I love that we get to go through this together :) We haven't been as close as we once were and I'm hoping this might bring us closer again.

I wish I could find out sooner what I was having. I have people wanting to make blankets and such and they want color choices... I don't know! I really wish I did.

Well there's my random thoughts at this moments. Now back to watching the Food Network that helps feed my cravings :)

craving #2

Ok so I wake up and what do I want to eat? Peanut butter and Jelly sandwich... but not just and ordinary PBJ. It has to be on the Grandma Sycamore white bread with Adam's natural extra crunchy peanut butter with Pineapple Apricot jam. It's amazingly delicious! and I want it all the time.. If this is how my cravings are going to be and it's already started this is going to get interesting. I need to quit watching the food network too. Everything I see looks SOOOOO good! then it gets in my mind and I have to have it... Damn you Paula Deen, Bobby Flay, Michael Symon, Giada De laurentiis, and The Neely's. Your food looks too good!!!!!

cravings...

Weird craving #1- Bacon. I hate Bacon... never ever liked bacon... I saw a Wendy's commercial for some bacon cheeseburger and nearly started drooling... It looked sooo good!!

Other than that I haven't noticed anything else weird.

I was so sick yesterday. I went to see Eclipse with my friend LeAnn and thought I was going to puke on everyone in the theatre. Even in my sicken nauseated state the movie was amazing. I only had to close my eyes for maybe 3 minutes to calm my stomach.

it's out!

Well my father knows and is surprisingly very excited! makes my life easier :)

the reason

Well I decide to go private because I felt if someone wanted to be added to the list they would actually care and respect my feelings and wishes.

Well Taylor and I found out officially last Friday that we are expecting! I am sooooo excited!!!
I've told my mom and some friends. Taylor has told his family and some friends. I hesitate in telling my father. If you've read my other posts you'll understand why... Pretty much he expects way too much from me being his oldest and only daughter. I'll tell him one day.

For the time being I ask that if you read this please do not post anything on Facebook. At least until I break the news to him lol On here is fine since he doesn't have access.

So there ya go!!! Baby on the way!!!

GOING PRIVATE!!!

If you wanna be a part of my "secret life" send me an email and I'll add you! mermaidhigh@gmail.com

I'll be going private tomorrow! :)

Alex

Alexander Maxwell Calder 1982 ~ 2010 Our precious Alex, born Nov. 24, 1982, died in an accident April 11, 2010. Survived by parents Larry Calder, and Pamela Averett Calder, brother Chase, wife Ivy, and precious daughter Isabelle (Izzy). Services Sat. April 17, 2010 11 a.m. River View Ward, 4800 S. 1365 W., Taylorsville, followed by a celebration of Alex's life at Sugar House Park 3 p.m. Contributions would be appreciated to help pay expenses.

New year, New start?

I hate when I get on here and see that my last post was over a month ago. It's sad. I haven't updated my personal in an even longer time. I'm sure it doesn't help that it's at my mom's.

So what's new? honestly not a whole lot. Living in Cottonwood Heights and for the most part loving it. Roomies are always an interesting experience. Can't wait for Taylor, Dean and me to be out on our own.

Dean and Taylor are the best of friends. I think it's so cute that when he has time off he takes Dean with him.

Taylor and I both got new phones the other day. I don't think we've put them down since we got them. :)

I'm excited to see where the new year will take us.