Monday, December 29, 2008
ACBC Christmas
This is really the one time a year event that we have that everyone is able to come to so we kind of go picture crazy :)
And yes, I am wearing purple pants. Just had to point that out because they are awesome!!! Thank you little brother for them!
Saturday, December 20, 2008
New Year brings a new job
Needless to say I've always been on the look out for a better job.
Well I found one! Yay for me! I will be starting work at Wells Fargo on Jan. 5th. I can't wait. I will be in the commercial card area taking inbound calls. This is pretty much what I did for Chase Bank for almost 3 years. I loved it there! I wouldn't have left but, we got laid off last December. Not only does this job come with better hours but MUCH better pay. Even better than Chase and I was a supervisor there. Now I get more money, a better work schedule, a social life & it's so close to home!
Hopefully friends you'll be seeing more of me soon :) No more 8 pm leave time.
Friday, December 19, 2008
8... 8... 8...
8 Shows I watch:
Dexter
One Tree Hill
Law & Order: SVU
Law & Order: Criminal Intent
Criminal Minds
Without a Trace
So You Think You Can Dance
Clean House
8 things I did yesterday:
Worked
Got my nails done
Signed my offer letter from Wells Fargo!!
Bought Dean a new Kong from PetsMart
Drove past Del Taco and didn't stop! Who does that?
Went to bed extremely early
Got a text from my brother extremely late
Forgot to text Brad back... Sorry I was sleeping :(
8 places I like to eat:
Evergreen
Sage's
Red Robin
Olive Garden
Mimi's Cafe
Cafe Rio
Chili's
Del Taco
8 things I am looking forward to:
The new Year
A new Job
Sleeping in soon!
Starting my Christmas shopping... yes I haven't started yet
Dean not chewing on everything!
A good nights rest for once
A phone call
What the future is bringing me
8 things on my wish list:
My heart back in one piece
A new Ipod
My tattoos to all be done!
A phone call
Dean to stop chewing :)
Some pirate items... anything really...
I could certainly use some snow boots... this weather is nuts!
Dexter Seasons 2 & 3 on DVD :)
8 people I tag:
Adie
Jaime
Julie
Janessa
Lane
Amber Evans
Jill Helbling
Emmie
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Dean's bodyguard
My mom also got a dog... well her and her Fiance (Phil) got a dog.
Lilly is Dean's protector as long as he isn't messing with her squeaky toys.
Dean also got a sweater.. he loves it!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Shopping?
I took a second trip to PetsMart to get him a crate (freaking pricey!!!) a blanket and some treats. He loves his blankie... not too fond of the crate yet.
Lane, we left his red guy at your mom's. He's going nuts without it. chewing on all sorts of things.
After trying out a few names on him... Albie, Dean, Monroe... I've settled on Dean or Deanie. After James Dean. Deanie seems to help a little coming from Stimpy to Deanie... the ending catches his ear. He's almost 4 months old and loves to go on walks.
Well now that he's napping it's my turn to take a nap... waking up every two hours to take him outside was no fun and FREEZING... such is the life with a little one :)
Thursday, December 4, 2008
touch ups
Monday, December 1, 2008
I just couldn't wait...
Then both my sparrows. Left foot alive, right foot dead.
And then now with the wrap still on... you can barely see the new stars because of the light from the pic but I'll have new ones as soon as they are done healing :)
Tattoo goals
1. Get my car finally legal - Then I get to add to my neck.
2. Hit my goal weight - get my ribs done :) SOOOOO EXCITED FOR THIS ONE!!!
3. Get my Vehicle infractions taken care of - I'm thinking of getting my mermaid done for this one.
4. Not until 1 and 3 are taken care of take a trip to Vegas and get my "uncle" Dirk to finish my left shoulder and hopefully get my banner done.
5. Finish some schooling, looking in to Pharmacy Tech - get my right arm started.
So there ya go... I have the plans for everything that I will get done even beyond this... I just need to have the time, money and the goals complete.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Tears
I try not to let things get me down.. but I can't always be optimistic. I can't put on a happy face and fake it all the time. I've been through a lot. I feel entitled to be dreary, depressed, a real stick in the mud every once in a while.
I need something to pull me out of this funk. I just won't allow anyone to try and help. I appreciate the offers and attempts. Thank you Lane, Jaime and Brad for trying.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Courtside with the Jazz
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
just a sneak peak
Monday, November 17, 2008
Diet
What little I can stand to eat doesn't stay down for long...
I feel so... what's the word??? Broken, lost, misplaced...
I suppose time heals all wounds... and time is always relative :)
Friday, November 14, 2008
Ouch
Mine happened.
It would have broken my heart if it weren't already shattered from the first impact. Ouch.
How can you lose something twice? You lose it... after many years of searching and hoping, you happen to come across it one day... you think... no, you KNOW it's the greatest thing ever! you're so happy to have it back! Then... just like before... it's gone.
I ripped my heart out to give to you... I don't want it back. It's yours... forever. Please be kind with it. The one thing in the world I wish I could keep forever. Isn't mine to keep...
I love you. Always.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
been too long
I went to Frightmares with some friends one weekend. Went on a car scavenger hunt that same weekend. Worked a lot. Didn't go to work because I slept passed my alarm. Oops. Went to the Jazz game with Douche AKA Cole. Said hi to old friends at the DC AKA ESA. Missed someone more than I thought possible. Bought and installed a new showerhead. Fell in love with a song. Cried. Laughed. Threw up. Hung out with Lanito. Bought some new books. Bought my tickets for Twilight! Bought new coats. Had a visit from Nate Stott. Got my nails done. Watched some new movies. Forgotten. Cut my hair. Dyed my hair... er... rather bleached my hair. Reality set in. Took a 5 year old to build a bear. Went to Xela's happy birthday/ Baby Gia's 3 week birthday. Sang Hannah Montana's Best of Both Worlds with "George" for at least 20 minutes. Bought fake cockAroaches. Text my cousin quite a bit. Got some good phone calls. My brother stayed at home. :) Looked in to getting a pup. And I slept, but as usual, not nearly enough.
There you have it folks... a whole lot of nothing. :) it's what makes me... me!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Moving day.
UGH!
Monday, October 27, 2008
Pictures
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Family War
How am I supposed to fight a war when the playing ground isn't fair? I don't want to fight a war. I just feel it's inevitable. I guess the only good thing we have going is that I'm not afraid to speak my mind. My Mom has a harder time with that. She doesn't like to say things impulsively that will make things worse. She likes to think of the situation and then respond. I just fly off the handle. Much like my father and youngest brother.
Problem is my youngest brother is so manipulative in things he says to my dad. He can say anything true or not, usually not, and have my dad believing it. Usually things about me. "Whitney's done drugs..." I've heard that one before. Never have and NEVER will. But do you think my dad believes that? Hell no... I've been so in and out of every one's life that they don't even know me. Did they know where I lived half of the time I wasn't home? No. Did they know that I had a roommate crazier than a shit house rat? No. Did they know I was an alcoholic for a year? No. Did they know I was in the worst abusive relationship ever for almost a year? No. They don't know and more importantly, they don't care. I could sit down and try to talk to anyone in my family and it will always turn against me.
I'm the oldest I'm supposed to be an example. EXAMPLE?! To what? 3 boys? how is that supposed to work? The rules seem to have changed so much for each kid. How is that supposed to be fair? I know times change and things need to be tweaked but have a little bit of consistency. Some rules would be a good idea. They have none. I had bad grades=grounded for life. They get bad grades=no one gives a shit.
I'm done fighting. I think that might be the best thing now. I'm done. Here's my white flag waving. Leave me out of this. I need to get out of here. Get away from everything. Start over somewhere new. Leave my "family" behind.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Hoodies & glasses
And I went to get new glasses today.. they will be ready in 7-10 days. Hopefully sooner! I found the cutest frames and I can't wait to get them. I haven't had a new prescription in 3 years so I can only imagine how much it's changed. The ones I have are blue on the outside and green inside. I always love different glasses. Here's the frames I picked out.
These ones are black on the outside and clear inside.
And these ones are a purpley-ish color... so cute! I didn't think that the cat eye style would look good on me but, I tried em on and loved em!
Monday, October 20, 2008
How did my life come to this?
Well it came to what we thought was an end yesterday. Mom and Mike are yelling... I'm in my room with the door shut, listening. I didn't want to get in the middle of it. Then BOOM! my door gets kicked in. What the hell?!?!?! Now I'm pissed and scared... I text my cousin to call the cops. I didn't have phone service or I would have called myself. I also couldn't get outside thanks to my brother standing in the hallway blocking that path. I'd never seen him pissed like this before. I didn't know what he was going to do...
Finally he goes to his room. I B line it for outside. I call Toni to see if she has called the cops yet... She had. About 5 minutes later they show up. The first cops approaches me.. Crap... I know him... well of him... he's a friend from Jr. High and High School's brother... He asks what is going on.. I start to tell him.. he then walks past me and inside. I follow and call my mom downstairs. We each take our turns talking to the cops and telling our story. The whole time I'm bawling.. My mom's bawling and Mike's just pissed. Mean while the girls are downstairs doing god only knows. The cops then talk to them I'm not sure exactly what was said but I know the jist of it was you're not welcome here anymore.
They give Mike an arrest citation and ask him to leave to cool off. The girls leave through the garage before he does. The cops continue to talk to me and my mom. Then the cop I "knew" says "remember Matt Madsen?" "uh... yeah. why?" I respond. "oh that was just him on the air... he said to tell you hi." Wow.. now I feel dumb... My friend Matt now knows about what's going on... I knew he was with WVCPD I should have known... I decided to text him and say hi back... He said he would have come inside be had to go to another call. Thank god for that. I could only imagine what I looked like. :(
After all is said and done we sat and cried... Thinking what happened??!! I now had the worst migraine EVER!
I ended up throwing up a couple of times from the pain so I decided I needed to lay down.
Mike came home to get stuff... didn't say anything to us and left.
You'd think that after all this if you were "the girls" you would a. not come back for a while. b. come back get stuff and leave again. or c. come in and be like a ghost. not seen or heard. Well they did nothing of the sort. This is where I throw in that I work at 2 am Mon-Fri. and I'm up around 1-1:30 am. Well this morning I get woken up at 1 by the girls coming in the garage. I'm thinking "you have got to be kidding me!!!!" I then get up around 1:20 to get ready. I can hear them while I'm upstairs laughing and talking like nothing happened! I walked in my mom's room to see if she was up... yeah she was. I said "do you hear that?!" She looked and me and goes "yeah... I can't even believe it." I was so pissed! I wanted to walk down there and scream! "HAVE SOME FUCKING RESPECT!" sorry for the cursing but when I'm pissed I can't control it. nothing says it better than the F word. By the time I left for work the lights were off and it was quiet. no reason to cause a problem now.
Here I am now... on the computer looking at my Myspace. I happen across one of the girls pages and take a look at some pics... WHAT IS THIS!? I find a pic of one of them in MY SHIRT!!! not only that but the other one leaves a comment saying "Whitney's." So they clearly know it's not theirs!!!!!!!!!! WHO DOES THIS!? I want to write on her page and be like are you kidding me?! Here's the pic. I saved it just in case they decided to erase it I'll have it... EWWWWWWW! Well now the story is done. What happened to my life... how did it come to this?
Friday, October 17, 2008
ACBC
ACBC is a group of 8 girls. We're best friends. We have ups and we have downs but when I need a friend I can always count on one of them to help me. I love them. They have helped shape who I am today.
Who are they? Well there's Brooke Patterson, Brittany Walker, Age (Adriane) Carol, Bekah Schuler, Sonya Reid, Kandyce Gabrielson, Jackie Jensen and myself. We live from Sandy, Draper, West Jordan, West Valley, Ogden, Chicago and for the moment all the way to China.
Some of these girls have been friend since they were preteens. They opened their hearts and the group to the rest of us.
I love you ladies!
Sonya
Kandyce Age
Bekah
Brit
Brooke
Jackie
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Saturday Girls Night
My beautiful friend Jaime text me, on I believe it was Tuesday, letting me know she wanted to have a girls night. Her husband was going to be out of town and she wouldn't have the kids. I didn't have anything planned yet so I said I'd set it aside.
I have to admit.. I was a little worried that it might be awkward. I hadn't really hung out with these girls in a long time! Worry forever gone! I want to have another girl's night soon!
We started the night by meeting at Jaime's house at 6 pm. We headed to dinner at Chili's. While we were there we were able to catch up a little about people from school we haven't seen. We were taking pictures of the group which included: Myself, Jaime, Marissa, Emi, Annie, and Brandy. While the waitress took a picture a cowboy from another table decided he needed his pic taken too. Jaime gladly took his pic. She let him know she was going to title it "8 seconds." Too funny! *for those of you that don't know a bull ride qualifying time is 8 seconds :)* He then joined in on a group pic. Strange man. Dinner was awesome! I will never forget Jaime and her tambourine of chips. :)
After dinner we headed back to Jaime's do decided what to do next. We agreed on Bowling but first we needed snacks!
We head to Walmart to get some candy and what not. While in the candy aisle I think we got a bag of each candy. Candy every where! We were then walking near some camping gear and Jaime spotted one of those hunting fur hat things and decided it needed to be tried on. Then I spotted a hunting jumpsuit. I said you have to put that thing on. So she did. I laughed so hard! She was posing for pics and everything. All the while in my mind I was thinking "why did I have doubts about tonight? These girls are so much fun!" Then Marissa needed some slippers so we went on the search. We found the cutest boot slippers ever! we each got a pair and wore them to the bowling alley. As we were headed to the checkout lines Jaime was getting ready to take a pic of Emi and Annie who were looking at blanket stuff down an aisle. This other girl came out of an aisle and apologized for getting in the way of the pic. Jaime said "oh it's ok I don't even know them..." Again I laughed hysterically. If you know me then I'll just say I hiccuped for at least 20 minutes. lol
We made our way to the bowling alley and had a blast, again! Dancing and bowling upside down or backwards. and a bunch of yelling... it was pretty loud in there so you couldn't talk... you had to yell. We were getting ready to go and Emi's friend Megan showed up. We were standing near the doors and again Jaime made me laugh so hard. She would follow people out the doors or welcome them as they came in. Hiccups returned.
Back to Jaime's house we go. By this time I was starting to fade. I was exhausted but, having so much fun I didn't want to go. The girls played a game while I watched. We were able to do some more catching up and have some good laughs. Then it was almost 1 am and definitely time for bed. Marissa and I said our goodbyes and headed for the door into the snowy crap outside.
Thank you to Jaime and the rest of the girls that made this an awesome night! Let's do it again soon!
Monday, October 6, 2008
Migraines
I've gotten to the point where I just try to stick them out... but my hell! this hurts!
I can't sleep because of the pain... well also because my brother is thumping his music in the next room. Damn Techno... doesn't help!!!
Ugh... I'm gonna retire to my room and hope for sleep... or death... anything to relieve this pain!
Sunday, September 28, 2008
MxPx
So I had a decision to make this weekend. One concert. MxPx Friday night or The Big Ass Show pretty much all day Saturday? I decided on MxPx. I'm so glad I did! It was amazing! I asked Lane to go with me so I didn't have to rock out alone. He's a pretty big fan as well so he was happy to come along.
So we get there and a band named Tat was on. We took a spot near the bar where we could lean up against it. I wanted to get closer but I didn't want to get chucked into the mosh pit and get hit. My only past experience with a pit was during AFI. My good friend Kacy and I emerged from it covered in someone else's blood. Ewww.
Sound check starts for MxPx and I'm excited! We were standing sort of new the entrance area and I figured this was how they were going to come in. Lights go down and I'm watching between the stage and the entrance. They've got to be here somewhere. Then I see Yuri walk past us... arms length away. Then here comes Tom and Mike right behind him. I couldn't wait for them to get up there! By this time too many people started walking in front of us so I saw a gap in the crowd. I looked at Lane and said "I'm going up there!" I was two people away from the pit.. too close but it was ok.
The show was so good! They played a bunch of older songs and only one off the new album. I had such a good time. Then the were finishing and said they were gonna be back by the merch tables after their set. YAY! I might actually get to meet them!
They finish and Lane says "if you wanna get a chance you better get back there quick." So I nearly ran. :) I was standing there in the crowd and Yuri, again, walks past me. People started moving around and so there I was. Standing right next to Mike. No one else was talking to him so I just said Hi! I felt like a 12 year old at *NSYNC! He turned towards me and said hello. I asked him, trying not to look like an idiot, "can you sign these?" I handed him the tickets. He signed them and was fanning them so the signature would dry. Then I said "and the back of my shirt?" I happened to be wearing a Legionnaire shirt. It's a clothing line that he and Joe Moxley make. Love there stuff! I thought I had turned around for him to sign the back but I later found out from Lane that he had grabbed my arm to turn me around. :)
Mike Herrera. Holy Hot.
After that we made our way back to where we were standing to finish watching Lagwagon.
Tom Wisniewski, Mike Herrera, & Yuri Ruley