how?

How do you tell your brother that he's a fucking moron without him hating you and actually realizing it's because you care?

If anyone has read my blog before then you might remember a story about some girls that lived in my mother's basement for a while.(10/20/08) They caused huge issues. AND took my clothes and took pictures in them. Well my brother has decided that he NEEDS to be in a relationship with one of them. The main one that mooched off my mother for WAY too long! She's manipulated him into thinking that he loves her. She's now mooching off of him. She doesn't have a job. She doesn't drive because there's something wrong with her car or her driving record... something. She lives with him and my other brother and doesn't pay rent, doesn't pay anything! He pays for everything. Now I hear that they have papers about what they need to file in order to get married????? FUCK THAT!!! I will not be silent about it. I refuse to let her take my name and defile it. Oh and how sweet... she even says on her Myspace that she "smokes pot everyday." Lovely.

I won't be a part of my brothers life if he brings her into my family. I can't. She will ruin my family more than she already has. I thought he was smarter than this. My other brother has tried talking to him and won't listen. He doesn't realize she's ruining his life.

How do I knock some sense into him? How do I get him to open his eyes and realize she's hurting him? She doesn't love him. She's using him.

you know it's been a while when someone else mentions it.

It's been far too long! I know! Well let's see... so much happening but with my lovely memory do you actually think I'll remember any of it? ha.

Well I've moved. I moved in with Taylor about 2 weeks ago. It's been heaven! at least for me :) Waking up to him every morning and kissing him good night every night is the best. I love him.

I am no longer a blonde... just as of yesterday. I got bored and had been looking at red hair for a few weeks and decided to take the plunge. So here I sit... with red hair.

I still work the shittiest schedule known to man. I hate working nights! although with Taylor working almost the same hours (not all the same days) it has been nice.

ummm... what else what else... OH! Halloween! it was so much fun! other than I got a migraine at about 9 that I killed for a few hours but came back around 2 am :( I finally dressed up. I NEVER dress up. I was Alice of course. The day was so good and so busy. We went to the ReAL game and then had a party at Taylor's.

Other than my life being on the amazing side... I couldn't ask for more. :) Life is good.

Legos

My friend Cecil wrote an article about a Lego Sculpture/designer that is coming to Salt Lake. I decided to take a look at the guys Gallery and he has some amazing things!!!

This is my favorite

Check out his site.
http://www.brickartist.com/

I wake up to this in the morning.... jealous? you should be :)

I love my life

Every thing is going so well I couldn't be happier! Work is good, for the most part, I have a crazy nutso puppy that's adorable, I have great friends all around, and I have a boy I love and that loves me. I haven't been this happy is such a long time!! You know it's good when my friends even notice how much happier I am.

Onto a mini vaca tomorrow in Wendover! :)

Weekend excitement!

I can't wait for the weekend to begin!!

Party Friday night with some friends and acquaintances. lol. Going camping with Jaime and friends! I haven't seen you guys in so long! I can't wait to spend time in the woods with Taylor too :)

And Found out earlier Jackie is coming in town so I get to see her Sunday night along with the other girls! YAY! and then... MONDAY! I got Monday off so Taylor and I can go to Wendover! It's just an overnighter but I can't wait! it's been so long since I've had any sort of vaca.

Why I love this boy...

He dances with his roommate He dances with his Mama
He dances with one of my best friends He dances with Matt He dances with Kay kay

He dances with me

And he dances alone... :)

My Favorite Pic

OK so there's 2 :)

how time flies

Well it's been since July... JULY! since I posted... wow I'm slacking!

Where to begin...

I have a boyfriend. He's pretty damn amazing. Makes me smile all the time. He's just what I need... and more. Thanks Taylor!

Other than having fun and hanging out I've just been working away.

Went to the zoo again Sunday. Always have fun there!

Rodeo

How do you say goodbye to a week of fun?
One tear, is all it took as the trailer pulled away.

I met an amazing person on Sunday afternoon at the E Center. I was there to watch slack and he was there helping his father set up their "camp." He walked over to say "hi" and I couldn't be any happier that he did.

Tuesday night I began to see just how popular he really was. Girls were screaming from the stands and he had a pretty good fan following everywhere he went. Had I seen all this before I never would have been able to meet him. I would have been way too intimidated to even wave.

I couldn't help but smile and giggle just a bit every time he came out on the dirt and heard the girls and the crowd getting loud. I watched in awe every night... "how does he do that?!" I kept questioning.

Thursday night I was watching my friend Kiera's little girl. She had a blast at the rodeo! I took her home so I could come back and hang out. I will never forget the glares from the other girls and I walked into the hospitality room and he walked over to me to talk. If looks could kill... Wow. :) We talked outside while hanging out in the dang spiky weed things. I still continue to find them embedded into my clothing and room.

Every night of the Rodeo got better and better. I don't remember ever having as much fun!

I said goodbye last night as he finished packing up the gear. I handed over my knuckles as a "goodbye/remember me" present.

7 days passed. 7 days I won't be forgetting.

your call

Thank you for calling. It meant the world to me. :)

Amy's Obituary

Amy Hocking 1977 ~ 2009 Amy Hocking was born on September 30, 1977, in Salt Lake city, Utah. She died on July 3, 2009, at the age of 31. She was a very pensive and happy child, always observing others, smiling her beautiful "gorilla" smile, serving and enjoying all those around her. She was beautiful as a child and later in her passing. Described as a "Porcelain Doll", she had perfect teeth, never needing a cavity filled. Amy attended pre-school and 1st Grade at Carden Memorial Preparatory School. She later asked to be home schooled, then returned to Quail Hollow Elementary in 5th Grade, in Sandy, Utah. She worked hard at school, took ice skating and violin lessons during this time, staring violin along with her sister at age 3. She went to many Suzuki institutes with her family at a young age. She was an avid reader, devouring books about various topics in very short time, and always carried a book around to read. Amy loved learning. She also read music very well, and was picked in her division to play a concerto at the Music Federation when she was 10. Amy also won an award at the local Cottonwood Heights skating rink in a small skating competition, studying privately with Nancy Grogan. She played with the All-City children's Orchestra for eight years, performing in schools and for many exciting concerts serving the community from grades 1-6. She also played with the Hocking Quartet (a family group) which played at the governor's mansion and many other venues at a very young age. Amy attended Albion Middle School and participated in the orchestra, dance company, and made good grades. She enjoyed making videos with friends and sisters. When she attended Brighton High, she served on the ZCMI Fashion Board, and became the wallpaper in the "juniors" department at the downtown ZCMI due to a photo-shoot, from which her pose was picked to be bigger than life in their store. Amy attended LDS wards with her family while growing up. She enjoyed the Young women's programs and attended with her older sister, learning to ski and may other skills. She sang, played her violin, gave talks, and enjoyed girls' camps. Amy learned to snowboard and often was in the mountains with her husband Sonny on snowboard trips, and with sisters every chance she could go. In Las Vegas, she attended Clark High School for a short while, then returned to Brighton in Salt Lake City. While living in Indiana she attended Harrison High School. Amy made friends quickly and always enjoyed people. Upon returning to Utah, Amy worked at BMW of Murray for many years and loved her supervisor, Linda. She was currently working for Mindquest of Sandy, Utah. Amy was married to Sonny Ricks on the 16th of March, 2004, in Kauai, Hawaii. They traveled extensively together, visiting many countries such as Wales, Scotland, Germany, England, Netherlands, Ireland, Mexico, Canada, Czech Republic, and Italy. Theirs was a relationship of unusual devotion, and great love for one another. Amy will be remembered most for her gorgeous, perfect smile, her sweetness and caring for others to the point of not telling anything of her own that might worry others, and always focused on defending others with great passion. She was always very dedicated to her many friends, and made sure they had the time of their lives in every activity. She helped her mother by playing in "Music from the Heart Children's Orchestra", where she returned as a paid player and sat side by side many children to help them play well in 2008. She enjoyed sitting in the Taylorsville Symphony for a concert with her mother as a stand partner. She was looking forward to preparing to be a mother some day, and especially worked hard at this in her last few months. Amy's gifts were always particularly thoughtful. She always seemed so inspired when giving, and that itself was a gift. She restored to all her family an old album we missed listening to for Christmas, found just the right color of bathroom supplies, and was very observant of needs of others. She loved her four cats, most of which were strays she took in, with whom she interacted daily. Amy is survived by her husband, Sonny Ricks of Salt Lake; four sisters: Alisa (Boston), Hayley, Heidi, and Cali Hocking of Salt Lake City; her father, Duncan John Hocking (Angela) of Pontypool, Great Britain; her mother and step-father, Seth and Susan Wilcox of West Valley City; her mother-in-law, Ingrid Ricks of Ogden; seven sisters and brothers-in-law, four aunts, one uncle, and many cousins in Indiana, Georgia, and South Carolina, and Utah. Also surviving are Amy's five step-brothers and sisters, and 12 step-nieces/nephews residing in Utah. A viewing will be held Sunday night, July 12, from 6-8 p.m. at the Wasatch Lawn Mortuary, 3401 Highland Dr., Salt Lake City. A service honoring Amy's life accomplishments will be held at Wasatch Lawn Mortuary, Monday, July 13, at 2:00 p.m. All are welcome. Any donations can be directed to 2896 Imperial Street, Salt Lake City, Utah 84106.

Amy Hocking

I found out this morning that a dear friend of mine had passed away. Amy decided to take her life last night. I will miss her so much! I remember the day I met her and all the fun times we shared! I wish I could have been there for her last night when things got rough. Pookie Bear... I miss you!

The best way to spend a Saturday night

Treyden and Tylie

Here's a little video of Trey dancing to Chris Brown.

Alice in Wonderland

I've already been waiting for at least a year for this movie... Now I only have till March! i'm so glad that somethings are starting to come out so I can feed my obsession :)

More Info

So I was looking around at a website and happen to come across this. If you know me you'll know why I post this and maybe you'll begin to understand just a little bit more. It's refreshing to know that maybe, just maybe someone else out there has the same thought proccess as I do. Do not judge me. I don't judge you.

Enjoy.

Humans are naturally social creatures. Society is based on the evolution and developments of relationships and social interaction: friendship, flirtation, and promiscuity. If these are the foundations of how we interact, then why do most societies restrict themselves by the shackles of sexual monogamy?Infidelity surveys estimate that about 53% of people will have one or more affairs in their lifetime. Undoubtedly this correlates to the 43% of failed marriages in the US. (And seriously, if it wasn't for the anti-divorce culture of some ethnicities, it would be a lot higher here). If so many people cheat or have the propensity to cheat, then perhaps the negative stereotype of cheating is misconstrued. After all, moral compasses were not meant to forcefully drive your life, they were meant to provide guidance to your life.You probably have the impression that cheating is one of the worst things you can do, right up there with taking a life and ... well maybe betraying your best friend. It's something that we have been raised with, and simply instilled upon over and over again by society. But once you are close to someone who has cheated ... or even someones who have cheated ... and you understand their perspectives with an open mind, and not the closed mindedness that most people tend to have, your perceptions shift. You realize and come to understand that cheating is a part of human nature, that we simply cannot be so restrained, that the circular shackle that resides on people's ring finger - whether physical or mental - is something that is nothing more than symbolic.I take life with no preconceptions, with no decided mentality, with nothing set in stone, because why should you lock yourself down when there are so many experiences left to live. Life is too short to worry about things such as suppressing your natural urge to flirt with people that you find attractive, simply because you are bound by the words "i'm taken."There is a difference of love and lust. These two words are by no means bound together, although you hope that the person you fall in love with is the person that you will always have lust for. Marriage is based upon love, a partnership that is formed by a strong connection of two people that hope to share a life together as we are naturally social creatures. Affairs are based upon lust, a feeling that is formed by the attraction of two people who have a physical chemistry as we are naturally social creatures.So the next time you find out your significant other has cheated on you, think about whether or not you have more than lust, think about if you have love. Forget trust, forget forgiveness, forget faithfulness, as the memory will always be burned into your mind. Instead, just decide if that connection you have is stronger than anything else, if nothing else matters. As long as you have that connection, you will have love.

Bee's Baseball

My friend Rich and his friends have season tickets to the Bee's games. Jazzy and I decided to go to whenever we can and it's been so much fun! Met some fun people and just enjoyed being outside. We've been making plans for the summer and I can't wait to see what it brings.

weight loss

Just a little story I'd like to call "what the hell happened?"

I just let myself go... Why did I do that? I look back at pics and I'm disgusted with myself. Yeah the pics might mark good times but wow. I think this post is more of a reminder to myself to look back and realize I wasn't at a good place in my life... weight wise. Don't let that happen again. :(

Before:



After:

FRIDAY!

Best Friday I've had in a long time! Usually because I'm stuck at work and NOTHING fun happens here.

Start the morning off with a trip to the Zoo with the kiddos. I took Jordynne (George) my friend Kiera's little girl, Jazzy took Tai and Lisa took her two kids Riley and Gracie. We met up at the Zoo around noon. The kids were so excited to see all the animals! George had never been to the Zoo before so this was an experience. We took tons of pictures with the kids and had such a fun time taking silly pics with and without the kids :)

After the Zoo Jazzy and I took the girls to my dad's office where they got Ice cream, cookies and doughnuts for being good.

Around 6 Jazzy and I went to meet up with Jaime and Julie and a whole bunch of other friends to celebrate Julie's birthday at Leatherby's. Delicious! and getting to see all the people I miss was a lot of fun! I hope to soon have a lot more days hanging out with them :)

Then Jazzy and I decided nap time was next on the list. I'd been going since 8 am. I don't normally wake up till 10:30 at the earliest. I work nights so I sleep later :) don't judge me lol

We had decided to go bowling but I didn't want to get out of bed. I text Rich to see if he and his friends were still gonna come and they were so I crawled out of bed. I got ready and Jazzy came to get me. We headed out to Fat Cats and got there around 9:30 ish.. probably closer to 10 now that I think about it. There wasn't a wait or anything which really surprised me. Rich and his friends were coming a little later so we got two lane's to make sure they would be by us. Rich, Kole and Joe came about half an hour later. We had such a good time with these guys! we had gone the weekend before as well.

After bowling we went and hung out at Kole's house for a while.

Around 3 am Jazzy and I decided it was time to head home :(

I would like this Friday to repeat itself for a few weekends. Just throw in a little more time with Jaime and Julie and it'd be perfect!

Another night

So Jazzy and I went out with the usuals again on Saturday... other than me being sick and sitting most of the night it was fun! Finally got pics of Thad not just from him jumping into the pics. :)
Me, Thad and Jazzy!
Me, Thad and Dave... he felt like jumping in.

Lisa and me... Love this girl!

Dave and Chad. they brought out champagne for Chad's wife Angie's birthday

My girl!

The "can we fit everyone in this pic?" shot