Half way?

I figured that I won't consider myself half way there until I hit about 24 weeks. Since I didn't even know for the first 5-6 weeks it doesn't feel half way there.

Last night me and my fellow pregger friends Brooke and Nizel went to dinner. I was craving Olive Garden salad and luckily the others said they were fine with going there as well :) It was so nice to be around other ladies that feel somewhat the same as I do. I do feel though that I'm not showing as much as those 2 are. They are at the point where you can tell they are preggo and not fat. Hopefully that will save those 2 from stretch marks. they are slowly and steady growing. I still feel on the verge of looking like I ate too much lol. I'm worried that all my growth will happen all at once! and Stretch markville here I come. :(

I can't wait to go to and have a shower for friends and myself. I went to my friend Amanda's shower the other day and the little clothes are soooo cute!!! I tried to be good and only bought 2 things for Charlie. I can't wait to see all the cute things all my friends get!!!

Dr Update

So when we had our appointment on Tuesday the Ultrasound tech was so nice and much more talkative. They said my placenta is still looking weird, but in the 3 weeks in between appointments Charlie had a good 3 weeks of growth. So that was good! They said her brain looks good. She had a full bladder which means insides are working :)

The Dr said he's cautiously optimistic. He said everything is looking good, but didn't want to say I'm in the clear yet. He said he still didn't know exactly what was going on with me but the 3 weeks of growth is good. I also got the flu shot while I was there which has left my arm sore :( but hopefully no flu this season :)

I like that our appointments have been moved to every 3 weeks. I know it was only a week, but 4 weeks seemed to take FOREVER!

I'm so glad we finally know what we're having!!!! I read a bunch of things before my appointment to see what I could eat or drink to get her to move more. I had tried OJ last time but I think since I drink it all day everyday she's use to it by now. I read drinking something cold before would "irritate" the baby into moving around more. Well when we'd go to the Dr since we're at the U I got a treat of a Starbucks Frap when we left (it's on the main floor and walking past it and not getting anything was just cruel.) This time I decided I'd get it before. Well it certainly did the trick. The first thing the nurse said was "baby sure is a wiggle worm!" The last time she literally only kicked her feet a little. This time getting to see her dancing around was so much fun. She was moving her hands and arms around, opening and closing her mouth (nurse said she was drinking the fluid, which was good.)

It's so crazy to think that just by knowing that she's a girl my heart has grown! I loved this baby before I knew but now? I love her even more!

I also found out today that my Short Term Disability is completely approved! Thank goodness! Once we start getting a check I'll be able to feel a little less guilty about Taylor working his ass off all day every day.

ribbons and bows

Well the news is in and we're having a girl!!! Charlie is her name... it's so nice to be able to refer to her with a name or she/her. I really didn't think that after so many of my friends just had or are having girls that there was a chance we too would be having a girl. I'm so happy though!!!

Countdown

I've begun my countdown to Tuesday. My next appointment is at 3:15 PM. I'm anxiously waiting and hoping for good/better news than we've been getting. I'm hoping last appointment was just something weird with the ultrasound and this one will be so much better! AND we should hopefully be able to get the gender this time too!!! If we don't I'm gonna go crazy not knowing!!!

Dr. Appointment

Well we had an appointment yesterday and we were really hoping to find out the gender. Well we didn't. The little shits legs were too close together to tell.

The ultra sound tech said that we were measuring weirdly and that I still had the bleed. She took our ultrasounds to a doctor for more info. After we waiting 2 hours!!!!! the Dr. came in and first thing he says is "the Placenta looks weird." oh ok... He said the baby is measuring smaller than he would like, but not by much. My placenta looks weird and it's not working as well as it should they said it could be due to the bleed and separation I had earlier but we just have to watch it for now. They checked the blood flow to the baby and that was good. Also the heartbeat was good. Right now there isn't a whole lot they can do. We just have to hope and pray that we go full term or at least as close as possible to where the baby can survive outside of me. He mentioned that there was still a chance that if the placenta doesn't work right, I could lose the baby. That's devastating at this point to even hear that, let alone think about it. Taylor asked with these troubles we are having what the odds were of it happening again. The Dr. said its like getting hit by lightening. VERY rare that it would happen again.

So for now I just sit and hope that all goes well. Now every little pain I feel makes me panic. I don't like living in fear... but if it keeps my baby with me I will fear each second.

Stuff shopping

So I had been looking here and there at cribs but nothing to extensive. I knew I wanted one of these convertible ones that goes to a toddler bed then a twin/full size bed. I was looking at places online that I could go and look at them in person. USA Baby, Burlington Coat Factory, and Target. I found a few i thought could be cute so I saved the pics so I knew what to look for. Last stop, Target's website. Scrolling and scrolling nothing was really standing out. There was one that was cute so i clicked to get more info. i was skimming through the pics and one shot they had of it I knew it had to be mine! It was a combination of the color of the wood, and the styles for the changes that it offered. Some of the other cribs when they turned into an adult bed looked ridiculous! This one was amazing!!!!! I sent the pic to Taylor and wrote "please say you like this." His response, "yeah it's cute." ok fine he doesn't care. :) So I start looking as to when I can order this, the baby stuff was all on sale so I was seeing if we needed to order it or could go pick it up. Sale ends that night. Taylor got home and I asked if I could please order it since the sale was going to end. He was fine with that so I ordered the crib and mattress :) I can't wait for it to get here!!!!
Sunday morning we went to Taylor's sister's (Nicole) house for breakfast. I HATE bacon. If I hate it then why when they started cooking it did it smell sooo amazing??? argh... I ate at least 5 pieces. She also made Strawberry pancakes. She got the recipe from Rachel Ray's app. They were soooo good! I wouldn't have ever thought about putting strawberries IN pancakes. YUM! Thanks Nicole! they were delicious!!!

I did it!

I took the leap and got married! We had a great weekend in Vegas! My feet hurt so bad from walking around all day so I was in bed by about 7 each night. Taylor got to go play without me bugging him which I think he appreciated. It also gave him time to hang out with my brothers. Its so weird and nice to see how close they've gotten in this short time. They've completely accepted him and seem to really enjoy him being around.
Saturday was the ceremony and I was up at about 7 AM :( so I started off with a Caramel Frappacino from Starbucks. I was struggling big time walking past it all the time and not getting any coffee. So i checked online, since I have been limiting my caffeine intake, and If I had a frap that was about all the caffeine I could allow myself. It was soooo worth it!!! I never realized how much I absolutely love coffee until I can't have it. It helped me make it through the day for sure. I got my hair, makeup and a pedicure done at the hotel's salon. I loved it all. I looked at the bill they sent to the chapel and it was $275!!!! I loved it but there was no way on my own I would have paid that!!! The ceremony was great! I was so nervous and anxious that I barely smiled in the video... As I was walking down the aisle I looked at Taylor and he had started tearing up. I looked and it him and said "don't." If he was tearing up I was gonna end up bawling!!! We took a ton of pictures after. I then went and passed out in the room from exhaustion. Taylor went out to play with my brothers and my dad. I liked that he felt comfortable to go do that.