The weekend

Yes yes I went and got tattooed... again!

I got my neck touched up and had two extra stars added to the sides of it... The only pics I have aren't the greatest. It's hard to take a pic of the back of your own neck.

I also happen to find an old friend of mine from elementary recently. Jazena. This girl is awesome! She came out with me on Saturday night and we had a blast! I had a migraine pretty much all night but I suffered through it and tried to have fun. She got to meet all the people I've been hanging out with lately and even had a few of the guys "fighting" over her :)

Jazena and I met up before the night began to get some shopping in and get some dinner. She helped me find some cute shirts! Then we headed to Olive Garden where we had the tastiest drinks ever! She got a Strawberry Mango Margarita and I got a Strawberry Fresco I think it was called... Both DELICIOUS! Around 9 we went to my friend Dan's house before we went to Brent's and got to see a few of my friends that I haven't seen in a few months now. We then headed over to Brent's to meet up with every one else. We piled into the cars and headed out. We spent the night at the Circle Lounge. I'd never been there but it was fun! The outside patio was great! Ran into Douche (Cole) while we were there. Around 1:30 ish we headed out and went back to Brent's. I died on the couch. Me and Cly'ta were both hating life. Finally Thad realized how much pain I was in and decided it was best we headed home. I remember taking Kita (Thad's dog) outside to him, getting water and getting Jazena and Marty a blanket since they were crashing on the couch... or asking Thad to get them a blanket and then heading to bed. I thought I was gonna die. My head hurt so bad it was making me nauseated. I was freezing and wanted him to just shoot me. He got me some more Advil and then I passed out.
Thank you Thad for taking care of me. :) and Thanks JZ for hanging out!

I'm super excited for next Sunday! I get to see Jaime and a bunch of people I've been missing for months now!

The Usual

Hanging out at work. bored out of my mind. With a million things going through my head. Can just a few things work out for me in my favor? I'm not asking for it all... just a few things.

I'm trying to talk my mother into letting me buy/rent her house. This will give her the time to get her crap out and moved over to Phil's. Not only that but I would assume that my brother Mike and possibly Wes would stay living there. I need a place of my own. It's frustrating to me to always have to go somewhere else. I can't really hang out at home. Keep your fingers crossed that this works out.

I've made some really great friends lately. I spend every Saturday night with em. Amy, Sonny, Cecil, Mike & Thad have all been so welcoming to let join me in their group of friends. We've had some really great times together lately. It's also been nice that Lane has been coming out with me on Saturday too.

I miss all the people I use to hang out with all the time but this working nights has limited my time. I'm sorry friends. The one night I really go out has been reserved. :( and :)

For the love of the mountain!

So Brad and I ventured out again on Tuesday to go boarding. So much better this time! although coming off the lift I immediately went *splat* taking Brad down with me and hitting my already sore tail bone. :( After that I was in pain the whole time... but I sucked it up and had fun! I was getting up by myself. Not an easy thing to do on a hill with a board attached to your feet. My arms paid/are still paying the price for learning this. I was so sore Wednesday!!! Worse than the first time... How is this possible?
I also have an enormous bruise on my right arm and my neck is still really stiff... I don't remember hitting my arm or hurting my neck. Oh well... Soreness means I'm working some muscles that haven't been used... probably ever!
I got to see someone I miss terribly on Monday. Best day and the worst. My time with him wasn't nearly long enough... I cried watching him walk away, again.

lack of interest

ALIVE!

I made it out alive... well almost...

I hit the snow pretty hard on our second run. My tailbone hurts so bad! I didn't think it was that bad when it happened. yeah it knocked the wind out of me... more because I wasn't expecting it. We did about 4-5 runs??? I can't remember. After the hit I was doing much better! Brad even said I was doing well. On our last run I told Brad to go ahead... I was just gonna stand there for a bit. My ass hurt so bad!

We got back to his house to unload and I tried to walk up the steps... key word being tried. Man I hurt! I made it inside got changed and crashed on the couch. Brad made mac and cheese and it tasted like heaven lol. He got in the shower to get ready for work and I laid on the couch and passed out! That couch is of the devil. Far too comfy. He headed to work and I stayed planted on the couch. Eventually I made my way up and came to work :( My whole body is becoming very stiff.

So I've had questions on who Brad is... Brad is a friend from when I worked at the Delta Center. Freaking awesome guy! We've been friends for about 5 years now. Brad is someone I can and do tell anything and everything to. I don't know what I'd do without him sometimes. :) Thanks for helping me today Brad! You're awesome in my book! Grape and Apple. lol

So I can't wait to go again! Once my body stops feeling like I just got hit by a truck. I'm sure tomorrow will be even worse but so worth it!!!

Snowboarding!

In case I die tomorrow snowboarding this will be my last post. LOL

I can't wait to go!! YAY! finally! I will try and get Brad to take at least one ridiculous picture while we're up there...

I'm scared out of my mind and excited all at once! AH!!!!

it's been a while

I'm sitting at work.. bored... I have my Ipod on shuffle and a certain song comes on that makes me think of only one person... I love him so much. I start to feel sad about where our lives have led us... apart. I decide for some odd reason to cause myself more pain and go look through old emails. Such a bad idea. I find one that just makes me bawl. Where did that love go? How can things change so drastically in a few short months?

I hate time. I hate distance. I hate caring. I hate love... it always turns to pain.